6 weeks ago I underwent Gastric Bypass Surgery (verticle sleeve for anyone curious), I’ve lost 35 pounds already and you would not believe how much that has changed my life in such a short amount but this post isn’t about my surgery, its about being fat. I have been fat my whole life, I never knew what it was like to be able to run, to have a thigh gap or wear a bikini. I genuinely hate my life as a fat person because I couldn’t do everything my friends were doing, I had to be the old lady, the mother, a towns-person in plays because lets face it you can’t let the fat girl be the main character, unless you are doing Hairspray. When you start looking back at how much your life is defined by a number on the sale and on the number on the tag of your pants, it’s heart breaking.
I had to struggle to get my surgery, a constant battle with insurance coverage and requirements and for a long time I wasn’t sure if all the work I did to get my surgery was going to work. They kept throwing another wrench into the progression and I had to wait and wait. In that time I added a bunch of “fat empowerment” blogs to try to boost my confidence about being overweight and try to make me accept it was okay if I didn’t get my surgery. Now looking back that was probably the stupidest idea. I don’t think you could look any fat girl in the face and they tell you they are truly happy with their body or even their life.
I could never honestly be empowered by my fat. My fat had complete control over my body and it was strangling the life out of me and I can’t be the only one. Being fat controls every aspect of your life, the clothes you wear, the friends you have, your job and your activities. Being the fat friend means you are the funny friend, as fat people we grew a tough layer of skin being bullied for years, it became a defense mechanism, tell a joke so no one can make fun of your fat. I honestly had a “friend” tell me once that they brought me around to make them feel more attractive.
A lot of blame is put on society for hating fat people but honestly I think they are just using society as a scapegoat. Society isn’t attracted to stick women, they are attracted to the beneficial facts of being “skinny”. There is nothing sexy about obesity, you are a risk for how many potentially life threatening diseases? Psychologically humans are deep down still looking for the best possible mate for reproduction, and with a disease like obesity you are not going to make the cut. I don’t think society will ever accept obesity as a “norm” unless we end up like Wall-E.
I have nothing against any person that is obese now since my surgery but I think its important that they be true to themselves. Don’t put up the guard of fat empowerment just because you want people to believe you are strong. I think if you are honestly unhappy with yourself being over weight then you need to do something about it because living a life of eating whatever you want isn’t going to make you die yummy its going to make you die painfully.
Chrome Shelled Regios- omgggg, I love this anime. I normally don’t go for anything super action filled but I really enjoyed this one. Its a romantic comedy as well which is probably what got me through the whole series. Lots of sword fighting, magic stuff and creepy monsters. Its about a military school in the future defending its city. It’s short only 1 season and worth the days worth of watching.
Rosario+Vampire: Let me tell about this piece of trash. This might as well be a soft-core hentai. Way too much out of place fan service, I counted how many pantie shots were in one episode…50 i am not even lying to you people. Its a “romantic comedy” (more like an Ecchi) about a boy who sucks at life and only got accepted to one school…a monster school. Which he had no idea was a monster school till her started going there, first day walking to school he gets pummeled by a vampire girl’s boobs. I should have stopped watching there.